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Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Long Time No Blog
So long time I know. Well I got a little bit busy, no a lot busy and I am ready to get back into the groove. So here we go.
First- the last time we talked I was in the middle of receiving donated embryos from a wonderful couple in Idaho. Well great news that is now official! We signed the contract back in November.
We have set a date for the transfer and now I am trying to wait out February. Which is proving to be a very long weight. Everyone keeps saying that if will just fly by but so far that has not been my experience. It seems like the closer I get to March the slower time seems to be moving. So the date is March 22nd. As of right now my only job is to get my body ready to receive.
Embryo Uterus Conditioning begins!
First of course prenatal along with some extra folic acid just for kicks. Then on the 20th of January I had two polyps removed from my uterus along with a D&C that removed a VERY thick lining that I have had for who knows how long due to my PCOS. On the forth of February I started Birth Control Pills. Weird I know I am trying to get prego so they put me on BCPs. From my under standing it is to make sure that my hormones are regulated for the next month before they go into the actual FET cycle. Then after a cycle on those I will move on to a bunch of other meds for the transfer that I will go into detail on later. Exciting I know!
Other than that Keith and I have been doing very well. God is so and he deserves all the credit. Without him non of this would have ever been possible. Sometimes I think about how ungrateful we can be and even in that he is good. He loves us so much. I remember when the docs first told us that it would be almost impossible to have bio kids. I remember how upset I was, feeling that after all I had done for God that he owed this to me. I felt like he didn't care. Wow just writing that makes me feel so foolish, that God owed me something. I am the one indebted to God without his sacrifice non of this would even matter. Looking back now not even at the end of the road yet I can see Gods hand on our lives. I had told God that he promised that I would have the desires of my heart and that, that promise must not be true because my desire was to have my own bio children. Yes God could have healed us right there and given me what I wanted, but he had something so much greater planned. When I was in the depth of my sorrow God could see the awesome road that lie ahead. My heart now sings with hope of a great future. What a wonderful privilege to be chosen to carry these special little lives that await Keith and I. Tiny snowbabies waiting to be given the chance at life. How special they must be for God to go to such great lengths to make sure they have there chance. I can't wait to see who they become. I know that even now as they lie dormant and frozen God has a plan for them. Whatever your plan is God let it be in our life. Lord you have provided the way and means. I pray that the work you have started in us will accomplished. I pray for my snowbabies Lord protect them. You knew us while we were yet in our mothers womb you have a purpose and a plan for us and I know that you already know these snowbabes and You also have a purpose and plan for them. Keith and I are blessed and highly favor to be given such a treasure.
Love you Lord and love you guys.
Amen
First- the last time we talked I was in the middle of receiving donated embryos from a wonderful couple in Idaho. Well great news that is now official! We signed the contract back in November.
We have set a date for the transfer and now I am trying to wait out February. Which is proving to be a very long weight. Everyone keeps saying that if will just fly by but so far that has not been my experience. It seems like the closer I get to March the slower time seems to be moving. So the date is March 22nd. As of right now my only job is to get my body ready to receive.
Embryo Uterus Conditioning begins!
First of course prenatal along with some extra folic acid just for kicks. Then on the 20th of January I had two polyps removed from my uterus along with a D&C that removed a VERY thick lining that I have had for who knows how long due to my PCOS. On the forth of February I started Birth Control Pills. Weird I know I am trying to get prego so they put me on BCPs. From my under standing it is to make sure that my hormones are regulated for the next month before they go into the actual FET cycle. Then after a cycle on those I will move on to a bunch of other meds for the transfer that I will go into detail on later. Exciting I know!
Other than that Keith and I have been doing very well. God is so and he deserves all the credit. Without him non of this would have ever been possible. Sometimes I think about how ungrateful we can be and even in that he is good. He loves us so much. I remember when the docs first told us that it would be almost impossible to have bio kids. I remember how upset I was, feeling that after all I had done for God that he owed this to me. I felt like he didn't care. Wow just writing that makes me feel so foolish, that God owed me something. I am the one indebted to God without his sacrifice non of this would even matter. Looking back now not even at the end of the road yet I can see Gods hand on our lives. I had told God that he promised that I would have the desires of my heart and that, that promise must not be true because my desire was to have my own bio children. Yes God could have healed us right there and given me what I wanted, but he had something so much greater planned. When I was in the depth of my sorrow God could see the awesome road that lie ahead. My heart now sings with hope of a great future. What a wonderful privilege to be chosen to carry these special little lives that await Keith and I. Tiny snowbabies waiting to be given the chance at life. How special they must be for God to go to such great lengths to make sure they have there chance. I can't wait to see who they become. I know that even now as they lie dormant and frozen God has a plan for them. Whatever your plan is God let it be in our life. Lord you have provided the way and means. I pray that the work you have started in us will accomplished. I pray for my snowbabies Lord protect them. You knew us while we were yet in our mothers womb you have a purpose and a plan for us and I know that you already know these snowbabes and You also have a purpose and plan for them. Keith and I are blessed and highly favor to be given such a treasure.
Love you Lord and love you guys.
Amen
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Moving Right Along!
Hope Saturday is treating you all well. I know it has been a very busy week here. It has been a good week, but a long week. Just thought I would give everyone a little update on what I have been up to.
JOB? Well I have been offered a job at a daycare. Which I am sure I would love. I would be teaching a 3 year old class! The bad thing is that right before I took the job the state called and wanted me to interview. The ladies at the daycare where so very nice to agree to wait until I hear back from the state. So now I wait. I should know by Monday weather or not I have been chosen.
EMBIES? Great news here. Things are moving right along. I have met with a counselor, made my appointment with the clinic, talked to the lawyer signed papers and paid for the contract, and I am now working on getting all my prior medical records together for the new clinic. Lots and lots of things going on.
Moving? Keith and I have been talking seriously about packing up and moving to Pensacola Florida. Though I am nervous about moving I do believe that it would be a good thing for us. The move won't be for a while, because a couple things need to happen first. We don't want to move while my father is still ill, and we also need our house to sell. So hopefully my dad will continue to get better and the house will sell. I have researched some churches that I am really excited about down there! There a couple different ones that I will definitely be visiting.
Talk to you soon.
JOB? Well I have been offered a job at a daycare. Which I am sure I would love. I would be teaching a 3 year old class! The bad thing is that right before I took the job the state called and wanted me to interview. The ladies at the daycare where so very nice to agree to wait until I hear back from the state. So now I wait. I should know by Monday weather or not I have been chosen.
EMBIES? Great news here. Things are moving right along. I have met with a counselor, made my appointment with the clinic, talked to the lawyer signed papers and paid for the contract, and I am now working on getting all my prior medical records together for the new clinic. Lots and lots of things going on.
Moving? Keith and I have been talking seriously about packing up and moving to Pensacola Florida. Though I am nervous about moving I do believe that it would be a good thing for us. The move won't be for a while, because a couple things need to happen first. We don't want to move while my father is still ill, and we also need our house to sell. So hopefully my dad will continue to get better and the house will sell. I have researched some churches that I am really excited about down there! There a couple different ones that I will definitely be visiting.
Talk to you soon.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Embies to Love!!
Hello! Sorry it has been so long. Between vacation and all the other crazy things that have been going on I have finally have a chance to write. So the past couple weeks have been eventful to say the least.
First: I have some great news. I have decided to publish a website devoted to connecting families that wish to donate their embies to families that wish to receive them. It will have many different features but most of all it will be mountain of useful knowledge for those who are just getting started in embryo donation. I will give a lot more details on it very soon so stay tuned!
Secondly: A wonderful family from Idaho have chosen to donate six 3 day embies to Keith and I. We are so very excited about this wonderful gift. I was beginning to think that something like this was out of reach for us, but God has moved and we have started the process of receiving the embryos! We have not decided on a date yet for the transfer, but we are hoping that our house will sell soon and we can do the transfer thereafter. We ask for your prayers that all goes smoothly. For those couples out there wishing to receive embryos keep hope and persistence. If it is what God has for you, it will happen.
Thirdly, We are placing our house on the market tomorrow night!!! We are so excited about getting out from under the huge payment. It has been a heavy burden these past few months. Please pray that our house will sell quickly and and at good price. We don't want to give it away if you know what I mean. We are thinking about moving out of state after it sells. Nothing has been decided for sure yet, but we are looking for great place to raise a family. Any suggestions would be great.
Lastly, I am still on the hunt for a new job. I interviewed at a daycare this morning and hope to hear back from them soon. I am still trying to get on for the state so keep praying that I would find favor there. I know God has a plan. I just have trouble seeing it sometime! lol.
Well I think that about sums it up. I know is more of an update than a discussion on any one subject, but I hope you enjoyed it. I will get back on track with a couple posts a week. Thanks and have a GREAT day!
First: I have some great news. I have decided to publish a website devoted to connecting families that wish to donate their embies to families that wish to receive them. It will have many different features but most of all it will be mountain of useful knowledge for those who are just getting started in embryo donation. I will give a lot more details on it very soon so stay tuned!
Secondly: A wonderful family from Idaho have chosen to donate six 3 day embies to Keith and I. We are so very excited about this wonderful gift. I was beginning to think that something like this was out of reach for us, but God has moved and we have started the process of receiving the embryos! We have not decided on a date yet for the transfer, but we are hoping that our house will sell soon and we can do the transfer thereafter. We ask for your prayers that all goes smoothly. For those couples out there wishing to receive embryos keep hope and persistence. If it is what God has for you, it will happen.
Thirdly, We are placing our house on the market tomorrow night!!! We are so excited about getting out from under the huge payment. It has been a heavy burden these past few months. Please pray that our house will sell quickly and and at good price. We don't want to give it away if you know what I mean. We are thinking about moving out of state after it sells. Nothing has been decided for sure yet, but we are looking for great place to raise a family. Any suggestions would be great.
Lastly, I am still on the hunt for a new job. I interviewed at a daycare this morning and hope to hear back from them soon. I am still trying to get on for the state so keep praying that I would find favor there. I know God has a plan. I just have trouble seeing it sometime! lol.
Well I think that about sums it up. I know is more of an update than a discussion on any one subject, but I hope you enjoyed it. I will get back on track with a couple posts a week. Thanks and have a GREAT day!
Monday, June 27, 2011
The Waiting Game?
Well it is Monday and as for me that's about all that can be said about it. It was a not so hot weekend here for me. Lots of things went off course this week but the big one was when the transmission on my car gave out suddenly and unexpectedly. Lets just say I am glad to move on to a new week with my long awaited vacation only a few days out!
Today I wanted to talk about the waiting game that we infertlie's get tied up in. It seems the first lesson you learn when trying to conceive is to wait. You start waiting for the first day of your period so that the counting can commence. When you get to the first day of your period then a two week wait starts as you anticipate ovulation! So you wait and wait and finally you see that egg white CM or you get a + OPK. Which starts a shorter wait for you husband to get home that night! Which intern starts off a new two week wait also know as TTW. Wonderfully the day comes to test and then after a two minute wait that seems like two hours, if you are very blessed the cycle will stop, but for most of us the waiting cycle starts all over again.
If that wasn't bad enough in the midst of this cycle we are waiting for the next fertility appointment, ultra sound, clomid cycle, IUI, IVF, SA, FET, and chance to talk to our doctor instead of a nurse! All this waiting is enough to make a sane woman crazy!
I think the worst thought among all this waiting is when does it end? Will it end?
There is no answer to that question. For some soon, for others who knows. There was a point in the middle of this journey that the only hope, the only thing I had to look forward to was my next appointment. Living this way is terrible, there is no joy and no substance in life. There will come a time when this season in our lives will end. For some it will end in pregnancy, some adoption, whether embryo or after birth, some becoming content as they are, some a miracle, some in despair.
This journey makes us feel like we have no control. Like a leaf swept down a raging river. We can over come! We can choose to let infertility define us, or we can define infertility! Infertility is NOT who we are, or what we are. It is an obstacle that God has placed in our lives to make us stronger, deeper, and wiser. I would not wish infertility on anyone, but I would not trade the lessons I have learned for anything. I have learned how to love my husband deeper. How to live better. To make the most of what I have right now! To really love God and trust him even in the worst of times.
Our joy should not depend on our circumstances. If it did we would never have joy in our lives. Joy comes only from the Lord. Whether infertility or finances there will always be some obstacle to overcome and some journey ahead of us.
Today ponder these questions:
So who will you choose to be? What will you let define who you are? What will determine your happiness? What are you waiting for?
We will not let our circumstances rule our lives. We will not.
Today I wanted to talk about the waiting game that we infertlie's get tied up in. It seems the first lesson you learn when trying to conceive is to wait. You start waiting for the first day of your period so that the counting can commence. When you get to the first day of your period then a two week wait starts as you anticipate ovulation! So you wait and wait and finally you see that egg white CM or you get a + OPK. Which starts a shorter wait for you husband to get home that night! Which intern starts off a new two week wait also know as TTW. Wonderfully the day comes to test and then after a two minute wait that seems like two hours, if you are very blessed the cycle will stop, but for most of us the waiting cycle starts all over again.
If that wasn't bad enough in the midst of this cycle we are waiting for the next fertility appointment, ultra sound, clomid cycle, IUI, IVF, SA, FET, and chance to talk to our doctor instead of a nurse! All this waiting is enough to make a sane woman crazy!
I think the worst thought among all this waiting is when does it end? Will it end?
There is no answer to that question. For some soon, for others who knows. There was a point in the middle of this journey that the only hope, the only thing I had to look forward to was my next appointment. Living this way is terrible, there is no joy and no substance in life. There will come a time when this season in our lives will end. For some it will end in pregnancy, some adoption, whether embryo or after birth, some becoming content as they are, some a miracle, some in despair.
This journey makes us feel like we have no control. Like a leaf swept down a raging river. We can over come! We can choose to let infertility define us, or we can define infertility! Infertility is NOT who we are, or what we are. It is an obstacle that God has placed in our lives to make us stronger, deeper, and wiser. I would not wish infertility on anyone, but I would not trade the lessons I have learned for anything. I have learned how to love my husband deeper. How to live better. To make the most of what I have right now! To really love God and trust him even in the worst of times.
Our joy should not depend on our circumstances. If it did we would never have joy in our lives. Joy comes only from the Lord. Whether infertility or finances there will always be some obstacle to overcome and some journey ahead of us.
Today ponder these questions:
So who will you choose to be? What will you let define who you are? What will determine your happiness? What are you waiting for?
We will not let our circumstances rule our lives. We will not.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Looking to donate Embryos! (2)
Hope everyone is having a great Wednesday! Today has been a crazy with a lot of crazy people. I am ready just to zone out and take a break. I have not heard anything on the interview yet which is becoming frustrating. Patience is not something I excel at.
We sent our bio and have yet more the first response we got. Today I did pay the $150.00 to get access to Miracles Waiting. So I will post there too and maybe we will get a bite!
My mind has been so focused on these embryo donations lately that even my dreams are starting to reflect it. Many of my dreams are centered around any stage of pregnancy. For a few months there my sanity had returned somewhat, but now I feel myself pulled into that all consuming section of my life called infertility.
I was driving yesterday and I just had this overwhelming feeling of great JOY. You the kind of joy that you know is only God given. It makes you feel like standing up and shouting YES GOD HAS A PLAN! Where you feel like you could take on the whole world all at once. I felt like I had a word of salvation for the whole world a wonderful word of hope that had been inspired by the Holy Spirit! I have not felt that sense of urgency and joy since I was at an internship at messenger college. It felt so good to "connect" again!
Jeremiah 20:9
But if I say, "I will not mention him or speak any more in his name," his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.
I am ready to be a mamma and I know that I know that I know, with all assurance that God loves me, cares for me, and has the BEST plan for for my life!
We sent our bio and have yet more the first response we got. Today I did pay the $150.00 to get access to Miracles Waiting. So I will post there too and maybe we will get a bite!
My mind has been so focused on these embryo donations lately that even my dreams are starting to reflect it. Many of my dreams are centered around any stage of pregnancy. For a few months there my sanity had returned somewhat, but now I feel myself pulled into that all consuming section of my life called infertility.
I was driving yesterday and I just had this overwhelming feeling of great JOY. You the kind of joy that you know is only God given. It makes you feel like standing up and shouting YES GOD HAS A PLAN! Where you feel like you could take on the whole world all at once. I felt like I had a word of salvation for the whole world a wonderful word of hope that had been inspired by the Holy Spirit! I have not felt that sense of urgency and joy since I was at an internship at messenger college. It felt so good to "connect" again!
Jeremiah 20:9
But if I say, "I will not mention him or speak any more in his name," his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.
I am ready to be a mamma and I know that I know that I know, with all assurance that God loves me, cares for me, and has the BEST plan for for my life!
Monday, June 20, 2011
Looking to donate Embryos!
Sorry it has been few days since I posted! It was a busy last week. I hope everyone is having a great Monday! Still have not heard back from the state on my interview. Please keep in your prayers. My sister in law says not to worry it can take up to three weeks for the state to get back to perspective employees. This only the beginning of week two.
Exciting news! As of late my interest in Embryo Donation (ED) has peaked to say the least. These last few days I spent surfing the world wide web trying to find any speck of info on ED that I could. In this searching I stumbled onto a website that is an egg bank for women. The site has a support forum for these women. One of the posts read, "Looking to donate Embryos." At the bottom of the post there was an email to contact. So I took a leap of faith and emailed. The next day I got a response form a very nice lady who had three families that wanted to donate their embryos to a infertile couple. She asked me write up a bio about Keith and I so that's what I did.
A day later after my Husband had edited it for spelling and grammar along with adding a little something of his own we sent it. So this weekend I waited impatiently, checking my email every couple of hours. So just a few minutes ago I received an email, that one of the couples had replied and that they are very interested!
I am so excited! I have this cheesy grin on my face that I can't seem to get off! I have read that tiny paragraph about a dozen times! I just told my hubby who is also elated! We are trying to control our joy and not get too excited just yet.
I will update you tomorrow!
Exciting news! As of late my interest in Embryo Donation (ED) has peaked to say the least. These last few days I spent surfing the world wide web trying to find any speck of info on ED that I could. In this searching I stumbled onto a website that is an egg bank for women. The site has a support forum for these women. One of the posts read, "Looking to donate Embryos." At the bottom of the post there was an email to contact. So I took a leap of faith and emailed. The next day I got a response form a very nice lady who had three families that wanted to donate their embryos to a infertile couple. She asked me write up a bio about Keith and I so that's what I did.
A day later after my Husband had edited it for spelling and grammar along with adding a little something of his own we sent it. So this weekend I waited impatiently, checking my email every couple of hours. So just a few minutes ago I received an email, that one of the couples had replied and that they are very interested!
I am so excited! I have this cheesy grin on my face that I can't seem to get off! I have read that tiny paragraph about a dozen times! I just told my hubby who is also elated! We are trying to control our joy and not get too excited just yet.
I will update you tomorrow!
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